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When I was a boy, I wanted to study the cosmos, The wonder of space and why some stars are brighter than most, I wanted to discover and effect change, Somehow society has other plans for you to be tamed, Growing in this reality, a dream too far-fetched, For dreamers are cast aside only conformity is etched, But slowly the scars fade and understanding comes, As I dream of the infinite space, galaxies and spiral arms, I wondered away and in its darkness I lay, Hope for a wonder to come and sweep me away, The pieces fell into place and into the depths I sink, The cosmos starts from the infinite within.

Within me is a river of red, A river that flows through my parts, Through peaks within my head, Endless canals that lead to my heart, The liquid hastens around my insides, Keeping me warm, It heals, breathes and provides, Keeping me alive to weather most storms, This blood has travelled from parts to parts, Within time and bodies, Crashing against minds and rushed from hearts, Imprinting lessons and memories, I am here and so were ones before me, For how long I do not know, But since the start, I guess it should be. Of the ancient rivers that flow, From this burgundy fluid, Lies a secret which we all know, But our mind shuts to prove it, Though killing just goes to show, The architecture of which we are made, We are siblings rather than enemies, So why do we build hate, From the external differences we see, Look at me, not by this foliage, Never by how the wind blows, But by the battles my heart wages,...

Follow not the rage of the seas, Forget the storms and devastation, Set aside the heat or the freeze, Because time is of the essence, The heart of nature may be of violence, But it's Soul is just. It's actions to balance. We are not Her. We are still in stages of infancy. Thus, do not let her be your guide to this reality, We need to grow and learn through this fallacy, Be of children that sees no disparity, As our blood shows only equality, Yet we are only comfortable in such calamity, Such travesty, Such parody. Lies we construct for false shelter, Stories of blame and useless words we blabber, I am not proud of my sisters and brothers, And I am also to blame. Keeping quiet as our home is engulfed in flames. Such gifts we have been offered, Yet, our focus has shifted and views are blurred, This violence is profit to the greed. Lost to the poor. Where is the balance? Where is our honour? All I is see is suffering. All I feel...

Some battles are not of guns and swords, Some battles last for centuries, Some battles have no history to be taught, But all battles are of fallacies, Some pain last shorter than a breath, Some pain too intense too take, Some pain last longer than death, But all pains are for your sake, Some moments are forever lost, Some moments are hard to let go, Some moments will be cherished at all cost, All moments are what moments know, Some people are hard and vile, Some people too quiet to flow,  Some people are kind to a smile, When will all people steal the show? Some love are quiet and gentle, Some love are loud and busy,  Some love are crazy, it's mental, Though all love is necessary.

Hearts may have shattered, Backs may have been stabbed, Minds may have been battered, Tears may not have been dabbed, I shall not return the favour! I am not the thunder that scolds and scream, I shall shed endless rain upon the valleys, And flow with the river that drips and streams, The cloud can only hold so much, It gets heavier in coldness, white turns into grey, Covering the beauty of the peaks with its touch, Forceful lightning strikes in display, Flooding the banks with tears so heavily, The floods will clear soon enough,  The settled sediments of which flowers grow so fairly, An empty space for new beauty to thrive in the rough. The cloud never question the need for thunder to roar, As the wind knows for the eagles who soar. This is the nature of being. Let it set within, Forgiveness is not to free the predator, but to release shackles from the victim.

Do not doubt a single molecule of your being, Believe! You are the sunrise that muses me to love and live. Do not close the gates of your truth, have it open to receive. Banish your guards away from protecting those sorrows and griefs. The hits of a hammer will only refine and sharpen the sword. The heat of fire will allow you to bend and form. Without voyage how can new lands be brought forth, The best of captains are the ones that have sailed through the storm. Your presence explains clearer than any reason ever written. Your face shows only a muse for paintings of divine idioms. Your touch is the wind blowing curtains of my sight, clearing the blurriness of Eden Your kiss is the silence I yearn from the noises within me that were hidden. You are a supernova. Brightening up my Universe. Igniting my heart brighter than a Sunburst, A perfection of movements that orchestrates sounds more naturally than any musical verse. Cool like a drizzle, watering me down and quenc...

Lines and dots that shows the divinity of light and darkness, As vague as infinity and as precise as a compass, A path for minds to connect, In vast oceans for hearts to react, Like stars, it's copious in supply, Adaptive, moulding space as it expands and multiply, Showing beauty and bliss without sight, Telling stories of frailty or of might. Bridging disparity and imbalance, Enforcing heartaches and defiance, Imploding wonder and fueling dreams, Exploring blunder, dwelling in extremes, Ambiguity in every essence, Ambivalence in its very presence, Prospecting its validity to comprehend, Or be vigil in the conspiracy to understand, From the poise, nebulous stories and poetry, To the spread of violence and all dishonesty, Be for-warned as meaning is as precise as the whereabouts of an atom, Only in Focus you will see the true nature of this Phantom.

Never thought that Oceans grew, How time passes like an endless queue, Longing for your breeze that comforts me, Erupting goosebumps that evince home. Daydreaming of your scent, Urging me like a child in need of sweets, Tensed my muscles and sway my thoughts, But the cold only reminds only of your warmth, A picture may help.  Your voice shall sustain, A memory may unfold a smile, But your presence, essential.  The need to caress you whole, To breathe your essence, The need for your river of love to  flood within me, Just so I can drown while falling into your eyes like gravity. Come home soon!

I am the valley, tight and shrouded, You are a mountain within the range, From afar I peeked at you, hidden. A magnificence that only grows in time, Those clouds that surrounds you, Do not listen to their thunder, It will only weather you,  From all your beauty and wonder, I tried to stream as loudly as I can, With rapids of white waves that splatters, But how can I compare, Your beauty, it peaks, I am down here while you are up there, The harder I try, my depression gets bigger, As this longing gets eager, your demeanour, well-refined. I hope you notice me meandering hearts as my rivers flow further, I will keep etching until I have reached the salty sea.

Hello! You there, It's a pleasure, To Read and care, My words of treasure, I feel you, Taking it in, Hopes in the new, Start believing, I see with your eyes, I feel your presence, Reading, Realised. Interdependence. We are connected, By words across lands, Destiny is fated, Change in our hands, Do not Idolise, Simply spread, Connection lies, In hearts that's fed, My emotions, Found in you, A Connection, Real and true, May we humble, Be in kind, Even when stumble, Deaf or Blind, Count on these, Few words that care, Thank you and please, Spread love and share.

As layers of goosebump shed across my skin, I am haunted by thoughts that does not seem to be of me. Thoughts of magnificent actions and plans that defy any circumstance, usually halting and doubting myself. But now, it is different. Something has changed. An audible heartbeat and sight that stretched far beyond the horizon, gifted by each day. Every sense amplified to a point of new understanding, new found glory of which I cannot ever explain. My ears hear of nothing and yet listening to every detail. A moment so profoundly emotional, I can hardly inhale without reflecting the action across my face. Of knowing the unthinkable and understanding the paradox of such that is life. As stillness envelope the state of which I have drifted away from, like gravity pulling me back into an infinite space of warmth that is undeniably comfortable as fresh sheets across a king's bed. The coldness of solitude balanced in the ever-changing state of the moment. My heart forever open. An enormous...

I am an Artist of sorts, Of a magnificent artwork that cannot be bought, A creation that takes a lifetime to complete, A beautiful piece too sublime to compete, Colours and shape that etched upon my canvas, With brushes that hurt and scrape, A timeless piece with mediums too diverse, An emotional aesthetic of destiny and fate, Each fragment, a memory of grief and love, The outcome of lessons in life, A detailed creation with no copy or brief, Every stroke defining my strive, Behold my artwork, revision of more to come, Growth is the essence of my belief, Scars may be just lessons to some, But these are evidences of which I have lived.

These scars upon my wrist, fresh and wet, Harsh actions displaying my love, When sorry is the only word she cannot accept, The only way I know is for me to feel the hurt, Grown to feel discarded and left all alone, Drowning in uncertainty of my roots, Anarchy apparent from a broken home, Unknowing destruction that follow suits, I am loving yet at times I turn, Into a monster of buried fear and emotions. I am good but at times, you pushed me too far, Cigarette burns and bruises do not scar, This is who we are, broken and trashed, Abused when young, maltreated are we? Love is hidden in the anger I lashed, Becoming a man I hope never to be. I am sorry to have cause you pain, Written by ancient history these wounds I've inflicted, Yet my scars do not appear faint, To save you, the victim will soon be evicted.

A mask is donned, Yet Truth is still far, Each lives are torn, Still lies we are, Open them, realise, Time has limits, Deadline, our demise, Empty hearts, fill it. Pour away doubt, Indifference, Share and be proud, Life of reverence, You are the key, To passage of hope, Together be free, Or slaves to the rope, I can't alone, I need you, Build a new home, Liberty and truth, Kind and wise, Discover for change, No wars, no hunger, No poverty, no pain. Please, I beg you, Heed my cries, A change is due, In you it lies.

I am sorry, for all the heartaches, For the countless tears, Blood that has been spilled for 'goodness' sake, And all of us afraid, hypnotized by fears, I am sorry. I do not know what to do. I cannot understand this reality, Of which only hatred is due, Sorry, I cried with a broken heart, My soul tainted with despair, All I want is a new start, Or at least for the world to quickly repair, I cannot keep this grief, It has blinded me from truth, I cannot keep this belief, That revenge is our only proof, I am sorry. I am trying my best. I changed and strive for better, Not only for me, but for all the rest, Humanity is my family, forget it never, Responsibility lies within eyes that seek, Hearts that beat and souls that peaked. Do not leave me in heartache, Do not leave me to sleep, Shake those at rest and in slumber, I am sorry but not for long, Love is the answer, A kind humanity is where we belong. To each and everyone, responsibility lies wi...

Such a hectic scene of everyday, I wonder of nothing but tomorrow, Hopelessly plugged in to stay, A life for to be borrowed, Nature stepped in and wave, A lifted feeling of my Heart, As lungs gasp and eyes cave, A mind freeing shackles apart, So taste grows shallow and hunger grow deep, But inspiration flow through mountain so steep, May bars never keep and time ever sleep, Keeping me sane, Keeping me quick, By choice and never need, Stillness that flows so deep, Everyday a new idea, I seed, For my vice I will always keep.

Still envelopes me, Eyes shut close, Words like poetry, As the cool wind blows, A vibrancy of life, Invigorate my heart, And that moment alive, In hopes of new start, Howling in my ears, Bringing sounds of transformation, Away from all my fears, Growth my affirmation, Quietly, I simmer and sway, The wind blows strong, Open my eyes to a new day, My ears to a new song.

Set my sail and I'll see you soon, Through the starry skies and the blissful moon. Through the waves, neglecting rough seas, I am Homeward bound so wait for me please. The stars they glimmer and show me the way, Don't give up on me, if I sailed astray, I will be back in those eyes, come what may, I am Homeward Bound, I am on my way, Please stay, Please wait for me, I shall call the winds to drift me along, I'll hope and pray, And soon we will be, I'll be back in your warmth, homeward bound. See the light from my heart, guide me to you, Feel the crashing waves, pushing me through, It may take a while, it should take a few, I am Homeward Bound. Please stay as you do. The storm has cleared, the skies is blue, The current strong, like the Oceans knew, The Moon is out, the stars anew, I can't wait to get home to you. Please stay, Please wait for me, I shall call the winds to drift me along, I'll hope and pray, And soon we will be, I...

A sound of boredom engulfed, Beating through it's drums, In my thoughts, I'll indulged, Pointing finger, keeping thumbs. Suspended from myself, Entered a new destination, Of eyes that do not belong, Though Hearts that drums to the same song, No, is the only explanation. Questions are the only answers. Longing nomination. Embraced with coldness in all weather. Forgoing my sanity, Held hands within heart, For nothing can see clearer, Than to see in such parts, I have, am and is. You understand. Safety with all the risk. Wonder again and again.

I stumbled across a deep well, Dark and seemingly endless, A well that holds in secrets, I cannot tell, The darkness enveloping all my grief and sadness. As I crept within the depths, I find a tiny spark of light, As I dwelled deeper and deeper, I find diamonds and jewels hidden from sight, They were fused within the shadows, A melange of colours that form with time, All I need is to clear the clutter of sorrows, Finding endless treasure, the deeper I climb. The underside of the darkness hidden within, Bears such beauty that is left unseen, Until these darkness are confronted and these fears are faced, Tainted water from the well will be the only thing I taste.

As each thought races, the mind slows down to give such images, In every sense of imagination, wonder sparks, Enlightened, I start tapping the keys as the words form into phrases, Emotion is drawn from these letters that are hieroglyphs to hearts in the dark, The raw, unrefined, realness to such depth within, Emanates the wonder flowing goosebumps on my skin, An awareness of a breeze and smell of the salty seas, The sunlight that struck within the trees, Its grace only felt by ones who stop and notice, Such beauty that submerges any doubt of being, Any false hope of expectation. Any rage or disappointment. In a split moment, an overwhelming feeling to comprehend, An understanding that is forever held but is gone upon a second thought, Moving each feet with a wonder of the search, Baring my skin, my ears, my eyes and nose, In hopes of the next glimpse of such bliss and joy. As simple as is it, nothing can take the oneness away when all has halt. Your mind only drifts i...

Doubtful at times, an optimist by nature, Proud of these times yet disappointment is never a stranger, The tears that left my eyes mellowed the laughters that burst me into life, The wrongs I did, corrected my survival to thrive, Those screams left me out of breath, Emptied my chest so I can deeply inhale, Life will shortly be accompanied by Death, For it makes Now my Holy Grail, Scars beautify the memories of pain, Wrinkles worn from the bountiful smiles, My limping stride a sign from times of strenuously drain, Within an eventful passage that stretched out for miles. The rain, the heat, the snow, the sand, The lightnings, the thunders, the winds and the dust, My yellow fingers upon these dirty rough hands, Have tasted frailty and iron that rust, Abandoned the abundance, brewing the few, Popularity never requires countless eyes, Love and lost till only Love is due, Temples and mosques, it lies in surprise, The impossible will rationalise, The illogical lie...