A Choice, not mine to make

Shock and unprepared as I stared in the void,
Breathing quickly losing my grasp,
Ravaged heart and every emotions toyed,
As I slip into this terrifying test.

How will I walk, how will I speak,
How would people refer to me now,
As this anxiety threatens, strings and peaks,
Who am I? Now that I've lost my ground.

Nothing is familiar while I am missing to be lost,
Those eyes are my future but it seems to be gone,
Disappearing heart & soul, is it my price or my cost?
Stupidity I feel as my prediction goes wrong.

Show me proof that time will tell as it heals,
Test my faith in the chemical affairs of my thoughts,
Forgoing everything! I am the hunter and I am the kill,
I am the hopelessly broken, cannot be fixed or bought.

Notes caresses my senses as I loose my own,
The silence seem to speak into the darkness where my heart once resides,
I don’t see any lights or paths to guide me home,
Then how can I choose when the chosen will not be the choice to decide.

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